Thursday, February 23, 2006
fix you
on my way home, i saw the backview of someone. i thought it was you. it wasnt. and then it dawned on me. i dun miss you. and thats sad. i wanted to miss you. but i dun. i never wanted our frenship to go this way. but it did.
i tried to recall all those happy moments we once shared. and then i realized, i cant remember much of it. i wish i remember. i want to miss you. it would definitely make it easier for me to recover that frenship we lost and make me feel like looking for u again. i know i still want you to be my fren. but i dunno how to. somewhere along the way, we just couldnt see eye to eye anymore. our frenship was like a very romanticized stint. it wasnt what you thought it was. and i knew it. but i didnt know how to break it to you.
you used to tell me that u're trying, trying your best to make me happy. and i never felt that u tried hard enough. maybe its because i cant understand the way you express yourself. and its because im a coward. the knowledge of who you are made me scared. the knowledge of what you did not reveal to me got me suspicious because u are really not who i thought u were. its my fault for trying to formulate you into someone u're not.
we are so different. but i still wanted to love u. i never wanted to hurt u. but i've already did. because i wasnt honest with u. i didnt want you to know the truth.
i want to miss you. i want to love u again. and i know i cant do that, except with the love of God. but sometimes, i forget about u as if u were never part of my life. i need God's help. i know i do.
Coldplay's Fix YouWhen you try your best, but you don't succeedWhen you get what you want, but not what you needWhen you feel so tired, but you can't sleepStuck in reverseWhen the tears come streaming down your faceWhen you lose something you can't replaceWhen you love someone, but it goes to wasteCould it be worse?Lights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix youHigh up above or down belowWhen you're too in love to let it goIf you never try you'll never knowJust what you're worthLights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix youi hope i'll fix us.
8:55 PM
