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i'm here to post an entry becuz i feel obligated to and also becuz i got to do this...

in reply to en's latest blog entry:
i love you enzie becuz you're such a perfect friend. u're the kind i can argue with but come out of it unscathed. i love you becuz u've been my fren for 6 freaking long years and we're still going as strong as ever. i love you becuz we go shopping and dun fight over clothes. i love you becuz u accept me for who i am. i love you becuz u try to make me more open-minded and u always keep trying. i love you becuz u're so different from me. finally, i love you becuz i know u're my twinnie and my enzie (and my everlasting shopping buddy).

for the past week, my life has been neither happening nor smooth-sailing. nevertheless, i wanna thank God for He's been present with me throughout this period. at times when i drop a tear, when i cry out to him in a tone that's deaf to human ears, in ways of expression that others may not understand, God has always been with me. i know He's in control. I want Him to take control of my life.

our church missionary from India shared this with the congregation this morning: when u're weak, u're strong (in the spiritual sense). when u're strong, u're weak. how true! it fits into the ironies of life. life can appear very complicated to me at this minute, but it can be very simple if i just submit everything to God and let Him take control. it can just be so simple.

to a certain extent, i've been brought up to plan and plan for my entire life. i keep planning this and that....JC, university, get a job, start a family. i realize sometimes i need to zonk out and just quit planning. i need to live in the moment and for the moment. i need to have long term foresight but at the same time, alleviate myself while being in the present. maybe go insane for a day or two and be young once more.

a few months of working make me feel like i've aged a lot. i feel older. i need to remember i'm still a youth. i'm not yet 20. i can afford to live like a princess, to live haphazardly (yet responsibly). i need to treasure my youth. i need to live in the moment.

so from now on, u will see me putting the plans on hold. as of now till i enter university, i'm going to be a crazy person. i'm going to have all the fun i want and take the risks i will never get to take. rest assured i'll still limit myself. but i'm still going to play the game.

a little about what has kept my life going these days: politics. spore's political scene is finally heating up. opposition parties are stronger at this current elections. i dun support opposition for the sake of going against the govt. i support them because they walk the ground and they try to understand the people. they will be our voice in parliament, whether loud or soft. because they dare to lose, they dare to speak. that is a truly commendable spirit. a losing party who put themselves out to lose is a prized possession in the eyes of those who are victims of the system. i applaud their spirit. i support them because they speak out for us.

spore is evolving. gone are the days when people are contented with having a roof over their head. today, it's all about freedom of speech and choice. if i get to vote, i will give a chance to the election candidates who will honour my point of view and give me a right to choose and participate in my future.