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i've always said i prefer working to studying. i still do. as a student, i have to worry about endless homework, tests, exams, etc. when i sleep, i have to be constantly on alert to make sure i dun "oversleep" so that i leave enough time to get some work done before i set off for school. when im working, i can sleep without worries cuz watever work dats awaiting me, is left in the office. n thankfully, i cant bring them home. so i sleep peacefully. n i play all i want, when im off work. less stress when im off work, less mental torture. good for workaholics like me. work hard and then play hard when im not in the office.

on a beautiful saturday night, i'm sitting in front of the comp reading frens' blogs with my fave compilation CD playing in the background. kelly clarkson, coldplay and corinne may. i just cant get tired of them.

it just hit me that time passes so quickly i cant seem to catch hold of it. unconsciously, i've taught those kids at QMC for 3 months already. 3rd paycheck today. not big, but its still money for my survival. i realized im not good at coaxing kids. but the truth is, i've known dat long ago. if i hadnt took up this job, i would never have known how to talk to kids n coax them. i used to look at myself and go, "i pity my future kids. they have a mum who doesnt know how to communicate with them". kiddish talk. i really suck at dat. after undergoing training at QMC, i think im getting better. now what i need to learn, is not to let them climb over my top. esp dat coco who screams just becuz i sing one line ahead of her. anyway, she's damn cute and pretty. and there's the little horror whom i feared the most from my 1st day at QMC. im glad to say as of now, she's becoming more angelic, sweeter and easier to coax. n one horrendous discorvery today: she has the same birthday as me! AND she was born in the year of the rabbit...which means, we're one cycle apart! im actually a freaking 12 years older than her. oh man. im so ancient. i feel like im about to be fossiled into a metamorphic rock. the little horror said she's gonna get a cake next week to celebrate bday with me since our bday will be on sat. i cant imagine...

sometimes i feel like i should be more conscious and aware of whats going on in my life. i tend to go through the day and then forget everything. i guess reflection helps. but u're supposed to do reflection only at the end of the day. i usually fall asleep in 10 seconds. there's not enough time for me to reflect before i fall into dreamland. probably should blog more.

i realized that there are some characteristics i possess which are my weaknesses, as well as my strengths:
1. self-assertive. im very strong about my own opinion and i stay rooted to them. its good to have a stand. but it will cause me to become short-sighted and narrow-minded. im sure en and huiling would agree very much on this.

2. i am often cheerful. dats good cuz i bring happiness to other pple. but it makes me look dumb n stupid becuz pple only see this happy side of me and think that im just an airhead.

3. im more rational than emotional. im realistic and very pragmatic. thats good. on the other hand, sometimes i find it difficult to feel for the issue at hand. i become ignorant towards the soft side of the issue. i cant express my emotions as freely as others do. this will make people feel uncomfortable and sad cuz they feel disappointed when im unable to share their feelings.

im trying to be more open-minded n back up on my point when i need to. dats my response to 1. no.2 i cant do much. i think its also a blessing to be joyful always. as to no.3, i'll try to feel more, to be more passionate and sensitive. i guess dats wat i should do.

a totally random point...i dreamt dat i went crystal jade yday. i was actually dreaming abt their heart-wreching cha siew bao. how i do yearn for it!