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I cannot stand it when people perceive me as just a happy and cheerful person. The negative connotation of that is the portrayal of me as just an airhead with a huge grin on my face and nothing more to it. What a seemingly-positive impression that turns out to be a smack in one's face.

Contrary to popular belief, i'm not upset with my A level results and am really contented with it. Like what my brother said, "If I showed you this results slip a year ago, you would be crying for joy." I am contented with it. I really am. But I'm not happy that I can't do what I really want- that is Law. As of now, I have to stoop to becoming accustomed to the label of a "Business undergraduate". I've never ever foresee myself carrying such a tag, but I got to brave the future. Maybe one day, I'll look back and think that I've been such a fool as to cry over not getting into Law (that's what en said). I agree because I know how the world and circumstances can brainwash me.

My worst fear is that I may eventually choose to live in contentment and make do with whatever I have instead of making a hard strife at all the chances and alternative routes I could have taken. Becoming an apathetic person is not who I want to be. Wanting to change the world and the order of things is as much as being idealistic is, but claiming that would be submitting to cowardice.

I want to leave the world knowing that I took big risks and at least, made some form of difference even if it can only be observed in microscopic forms.